"Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born." Anaìs Nin
Today, I would like to begin by sending out a very special thank you to G of Neurosis of a stay at home mom of 3 who wrote me the most caring comment. It brought tears to my eyes and gave me the permission I was unknowingly seeking.
Allow me to share it with you...
"I wanted to just make a note here on speed. In a lot of your posts you seem worried about how fast or slow you are running, and I think it would be a great idea if for your first half marathon you just relax and enjoy the moment without making a WHOLE bunch of time goals. Seriously, it took me almost 3 hours to finish my first HALF! And "only 5" to finish my first marathon... which proves that a lot more speed (and yes, I know those are not speedy times, but I have a ton of fun running) will come with time.
Do this HALF because you LOVE IT! Because you have a PASSION FOR RUNNING! Because it makes you HAPPY! Because it EMPOWERS YOU to overcome the physical "limitation" of asthma." Momof3
This was totally an AHA moment for me. I started this journey with no time goal and the wish to accomplish something I never thought possible...I just wanted to be able to do it! As much as I am inspired by everyone's accomplishments, I am also a bit intimidated...everyone seems to be
going so fast doing so well. But this comment reminded me that many of you have been doing this for longer than I have and that I need to go back to my initial mindset, which is to simply try my best, be proud of myself, appreciate how much it's helping my asthma and enjoy the ride! I can not thank you enough Momof3.
My second AHA moment came yesterday when I went to bed past 11pm once again and had trouble falling asleep because I was still a bit overstimulated from all the blog reading and commenting. I just had one of those "blinks" where I realized that I was trying to do more and more on less and less sleep...and it clicked that I don't have to do this! I don't know if I would call myself a type A, maybe...but, I do know that someone once told me that I don't do anything half-assed. That goes for running and blogging I guess. I have learned so much from reading about everyone's experiences with running and I love hearing about the ups and downs of training, injuries, juggling, etc...
Here's what I was thinking:
1) No more going to bed later than 10pm on nights when I need to get up early the next morning.
2) Even if I don't have to rush in the morning, get off the computer by 10pm (go read a book - I used to read 1 to 3 books a week and lately I've only been reading blogs).
3) Allow yourself no more than a maximum of an hour a day for reading blogs and commenting. So, if I didn't get to yours today, I'll make sure you're on my list for tomorrow - because I'm curious and I don't want to miss anything :).
4) It's okay not to post something every single day (I am for sure using Wordless Wednesday and will continue to not post on Saturdays).
I am not a very rigid person, so this is not written in blood...some days I might still overdo it and others I may not be on the computer at all. The important thing is that I had an insight and the awareness will help me cope in the healthiest way possible with my very busy life.
Good night everyone!